My secret gardern

Today is not so hot but I still cannot concerntrate on the study.

 

I just wanna sleep or listen to the music.

 

Hate myself

long time no C

This is a funny statement which I came across the other day on the Internet.You can safely draw the conclusion that everyone has his or her own point of view towards the world.We choose different kinds of ways of living.Something may seem strange to you but fairly common to the others.

 

My life is totally at a loss as to what should be put in the first place.To be honest,I know study must come the first in line,but I can't get a grip on myself on such a hot day.I just wanna be at home, staying with the air-conditioning.

 

God, let the typhoon be here.

 

Today I came back to school.I have found that home is not a good place for studying.And I realize that I can't be tripped up by the same tackle twice.I don't want to regret in the future.

 

Now I am studying Advanced English.It's so difficult.I have never found English to be so strange,so difficult.But I will carry on.The more difficult the test is,the more excited I will become.So just go,I know I can do it!

I admit that I am not a good friend,at least after I had a boyfriend.Things just got so complicated around me.

 

I just wanna go back to those simple days.I have told you that I haven't been used to the life of two people,partially because that I can't stand when there's no friends around.

 

In fact,the so-called friends in our school is probably only you.I just don't know how to change the situation.I wanna help.Forgive me

I studies three sessions of Friends today.That's the only what I got today.

 

It was my first day home and it's really hot here.My dad was out to get some equipment to make AC start working here.I know my dad love deeply and so do I.Surely he should be the man who I love most.

 

I can see the bitterness my parents are going through.The only way in which I can help them is to study hard.I must enrich myself,make myself prepared for the future job,thus make more money.Go on,my dear! 

 

Today I was intended to study.But after two hours I quited.I just can't get myself concentrated in the books.

 

Now the wind blow heavily.I think it is just another night that we can't go out

I didn't realize that I haven't written the blog for two days until today.

 

What a pity! I can't see all those numbers in bold for the whole month.

 

Why there isn't anybody remind me of this. I just wanna cry. Maybe it's just that I was too busy with my final exams.Now the finals finished.And my life is back to boring and vacuous.

 

Oh,God,I need to find something to do,to enrich myself.Blessing.

Today I misteriously ran into an old friend who studied in USA. He showed me a lot of photos he took there and told me something about his life there. Suddenly I felt a long distance call which comes from the bottom of my heart. Indeed that's what I have always been wanted. I have always been eagered to go abroad but every so often there are things stand in my way,covering my eyes,and I almost forgot that deepest desire.

 

I want to start a new life.Things are boring around me.I just wanna make some changes.

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Future,is a faint word.Nobody knows what his or her future will be.As for me,I don't even know what kind of future I wanna have.I just wanna stay where I am,never grow up and never have to leave my parents,and that will be all.That's all I want.

 

I don't know if I can get a job.If I can get a job,I still don't know whether I can stay in GZ.Even if I can stay in GZ,I don't know where he wii be.Even we are all in GZ,we might not be able to live together.All is uncertain.I am not certain of my future,how can I be certain of the future of two.Things are getting more and more complicated recently.I feel bad about myself and our relationship.I know it's because of me.I just don't know the way out.

It's really amazing that I can insist on working on this blog.This never happened.I am so proud of myself.

 

Tomorrow I will have an exam.Cross my fingers.

 

And I also wanna say that I love my parents.Yes,nothing and nobody can be more precious than them.

 

1.Happiness: a good bank account, a good cook, and a good digestion.

 

     Different people have different opinions towards happiness.You may feel happy when you have lobsters,but for me,an apple pie is enough

 

2.Someone said that the ideal life is to live in an English country home, engage a Chinese cook, marry a Japanese wife, and take a French mistress. 

 

3.Most of the happiness in this world consists of possessing what others can’t get. 

       Happiness is just a feeling.You may feel happy if you had a santana while those around you can only ride a bike.But what if you had a Chery while others own BMWs.Then you may not feel a thing about happiness 

 

4..Happiness is not a goal, it is a by-product.

      You may not be happy if yo just say I wanna happiness all the time.You must do something and thus you may feel happy. 

 

5.Happiness is good health plus a bad memory. 

     Treat everything with a gratitude ,happiness will always be there for you

 

6.Everyday is a gift.

 

7.I feel happy. I have only two hands, but I have two pairs of gloves.

      Make oneself happy is a really simple thing. 

 

8.How beautifully everything is arranged by Nature; as soon as a child enters the world,it finds a mother ready to take care of it. 

 

9.I felt sorry for myself because I had no shoes — until I met a man who had no feet. 

 

    Happiness needs comparison.You are not happy because you haven't met someone who is more pathetic than you. 

 

10.My left leg is bad one day and my right leg is bad the next. Thank God I’m not a centipede.

 

11.Don’t postpone joy.不要推迟快乐。

 

12.No man is a failure who is enjoying life. 

 

13.Enjoy life, this is not a dress rehearsal. 

 

    You can chage clothes if it dones't fit you.but you can't chage your life when you are not satisfied

 

14.The most precious thing we have is life. Yet it has absolutely no trade-in value.

 

15Help keep my Oscar Hopes Alive.

 

16.We should hope for the best, but prepare for the worst. The worst result is that we can’t get out of the world alive.

Today I have made a mistake.I dumped my parents because of my boyfriend.It's really an awful thing to do so.I feel guilty.

 

I think my parents are gonna hate me.

 

I am terribly sorry.

 

Dad Mom I am sorry!

 

 

Not long ago,  back, I read a very interesting book that compared  life to a train ride.

Life is like a train ride,?it read. We get on. We ride. We get off. We get back on and ride some more. There are accidents and there are delays

At certain stops there are surprises. Some of these will translate into great moments of joy, some will result in profound sorrow.

When we are born and we first board the train, we meet people whom we think will be with us for the entire journey. Those people are our parents!

Sadly, this is far from the truth.
Our parents are with us for as long as we absolutely need them. They, too, have journeys they must complete.

We live on with the memories of their love, affection, friendship, guidance and their forever presence in our hearts and minds.

There are others who board the train and who eventually become very important to us, in turn.
These people are our family, friends and acquaintances, whom we will learn to love, respect and cherish on our journey together.

Some people consider their journey like a jaunty tour. They will just go merrily along
Others, will encounter many upsets, tears, and losses on their journey.
Others still, will linger on to offer a helping hand to anyone in need.

Some people on the train will leave an everlasting impression when they get off….

Some will get on and get off the train so quickly, they will barely leave a sign that they ever travelled  with you.  

We will sometimes be upset that some passengers whom we love, will choose to sit in another compartment and leave us to travel on our own.

Then again, there’s nothing that says we can’t seek  them out ourselves if we need to see them.

Nevertheless, once sought out and found,  we may not even be able to sit next to them because that  seat will already be taken.

That’s okay …everyone’s journey will be filled with hopes, dreams, setbacks and goodbyes.

We must try to make the best of it, no matter what...
We must constantly strive to understand our travel companions and  look for the best in everyone.

Remember that at any moment during our journey, any one of our travel companions can have a weak moment and be in need of our help.

We too may pause or hesitate, even fall down… hopefully we can count on someone being there to be supportive and understanding…

The bigger mystery of our journey is that we don’t know when our last stop will come.  
Neither do we know when our travel companions will make their last stop.

Not even those sitting in the seat next to us.

Personally, I know I’ll be sad to make my final stop.

My separation from all those friends and acquaintances I made during the train ride will be painful.

But then again, I’m certain that one day I’ll get to the main station only to meet up with everyone else.

I’ll be glad to see them again. I’ll also be glad to have contributed to their lives, just as much as they will be happy to have contributed to and enriched my life.

We’re all on this train ride together. We should all try to  make the ride as pleasant as we can, right up until we each make the final stop and leave the train for the last time.


All aboard!

I wish you a safe journey!!

Now I understand.Even if someone promise you to do something,there's possibility that he or she is not that willing to do.So never ask people to do something for you.If he or she really wanna do something for you,they will just do.So never ask.

 

I can only promise myself.I will never show this thought to anybody.It's time to be smart.Just leave me alone.I just wanna be myself.I wanna make myself busy. Fill my life with music, study, work, English, Japanese and other things that may make me feel comfortable and enriched,but never love.

 

Trouble will find you no mater where you go, oh oh.

 

No Matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow, oh oh.

 

The eye of the storm and the cry in the morn, oh oh.

 

Your fine for a while but then start to loose control.

 

He's there in the dark,

 

he's there in my heart,

 

he waits in the winds

 

he's gotta play a part.

 

Trouble is a friend,

 

yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!

 

 

 

 

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh.

 

And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh.

 

He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh.

 

So don't forget as you ease on down the road.

 

He's there in the dark,

 

he's there in my heart,

 

he waits in the winds

 

he's gotta play a part.

 

Trouble is a friend,

 

yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!

 

 

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.

 

I won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.

 

Trouble is a friend,

 

yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh!

 

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel.

 

And how I try to make him leave; I try.

 

Oh Oh I try!

 

 

 

It's a nice song which deserves listening to.

 

Today I almost forgot to write a composition here.

 

We were so busy these days.We will have our first final exam tomorrow evening.

 

Today I had made a mistake.I told him that I didn't like it when he get to know some friends through Internet.Actually,I just don't want him to meet some girls on Internet.I know it has been a little bit selfish 'cause it's totally his own business.I have no reason to interference him.

 

I think that I may be a little hard on him.I have always been telling him that I like what and I don't like what and I just wanna him to live a life which I prefer to.I know it's not righteous.A friend of mine said that he thought me to be a high-demanding girlfriend.And it's really true.It's amazing that he can see that.

 

 

What a day!

 

It's so hot! I am just not in the mood to do anything.I just wanna lie down and think about the air conditioning. Actually there isn't AC in my dormitory.So we are all here in this incredibly hot cage.

 

Typhoon.I am looking forward to your coming

 

By the way,today is Father's Day.Wish my daddy happy every day.

 

Long live the daddy.o(∩_∩)o

Today a lot of my friends will go to take the CET-4 or CET-6 exam.I just hope they will all pass it with flying colors

 

I went through some dialogue which Deyoo and I had months ago.Sometimes friends may step away once one of them had a boyfriend or girlfriend.When I step into the loving matter,I am kind of leaving my friends behind.This tendency is horrible.I wanna change

 

Things had changed since yesterday.We quarelled.I think you have been selfish and you think I haven't think about you.There seems a huge gap between us.I don't know how to face you.And this morning you said you are sad,but you can't tell me why.I figure that the reason must be about me.

 

I can never imagine it's so hard to be with someone.Everything around me is affected by you.When you are sad,I am sadder than you.But when you are happy,I may not be happier than you.My life now is in such a mess.I just can't go back to my own schedule because of you.Love actually possesses a magic power.I just hope that you never ever tormented me again.

Today I went to the hospital again.The hospital was crowded as usual.Every day,different people may come to see the doctor due to different illness.But there's one thing that is unchangeable.Each and every one of us have been to hospital at least once.Indeed hospital is not a good place,but sometimes we just can't help but consult a doctor.

 

I am so curious about my future.I don't know what my life wiil be.But from the tendency,I don't think I am gonna enjoy my life.I know everyone is bound to meet several people before they step into the marriage.And to be honest, sometimes I feel eagly to leave him because sometimes he acts like a miser.But I just can't pull myselt out of his pool.And I feel myself so much like a paradox.I love him but I just can't stand with his miserly action.

 

Love is just like those bubbles.When it encounters the reality,it blows up.

 

God   please don't torment me

 

I have to pay for 1000yuan for my politics classes in the summer holiday.Soon there wiil be a person here to take my money away.I just hate that it seems so much money and I just grasped a glance at it then it's not mine.

 

Indeed I need money.Or you can say everyone needs money.I've always think about what I would do if I have a million dollars.First I will give half of them to my parents.Then remains is up to me.In the first place,I will use it to attend Wallstreet English Courses which I 've been longing for from the day I arrived in Guangzhou. Second,a Japanese course may be my second choice.Then I will use it to pay for various electronic equipment which I have been desired to own.Last but not least,if there is enough left,I may even go abroad to broaden my sight. First,USA, then,Japan,next,maybe Iran.

 

 

We went to the hospital this morning.It was a little bit hot out there.Because it was rush hours when we got on the bus,it was very crowded and we end up in a traffic jam.It took us nearly half an hour to get to the hospital.What blows our mind is that the hospital is as crowed as a market on Sundays.Why are there so many sick person is beyond our thoughts.The doctor asked him to brush his ear canal.I coulld see the bitterness from his face.I must be hurt.When he cried out,I just couldn't hold my tear.Then I rushed out of the room and cried.It sounded really stupid.I became a little bit hate myself.Why my tear is so valueless.I just can't stand with myself.

 

The weather was strange today.

 

I hope he will be alright soon.

He is sick.

 

I didn't realize that we are couples until today.He needs me just like I need him.I know it's a hard time for him.From the very beginning,I have been so selfish that I just take everything for granted.I thought he should think about me before he did anything.But when he lied on my lap I feel he was like a child--waiting there for my careness.The feeling is unbelieveably strong.

 

I hope he will be OK soon

 

Today I felt so guilty that I was not in the mood to do anything.

 

The exanmination is around the corner and I hadn't been very serious with my classes.I don't even know what the test is about.I just can't get myself together to do some reviewing.All I did today was sleeping and eating.Things are getting out of control.I am having final exams and in the meantime I am preparing for my graduate entrancing exam.But I just can't get myself in the zone.I hope things will change.However the only one who can change the situation is someone who now is in a zone typing this stupid passage and complaining about the stupid situation.Oh God.Why so chaotic and twirly?I just wanna things back.Back to where it were.

 

May the God bless all.

 

 

My relatives arrived in Guangzhou today. We are having an exhausting day.We had lunch together.Then went shopping.To be honest I don't like going shopping with these old women.They are likely to talk to you all the time and never agree with what you wanna do,which,makes me feel sick.

 

During the lunch,they talked about my lover,one can safely draw the conclusion that they are not satisfied with him.They treat him as someone who is poor and unhealthy.However,I paid little heed to their judgement.It is I rather than anybody else that will be responsible for my future.Indeed I love him.And I suppose that the more they denied him,the more I love him.That's really strange.I don't know what our future will become of,but I'm sure that I will never give up.If we are poor,we can enrich ourselves and make money.If we are unhealthy,we can develop healthy eating habit and do more exercises.I believe that there certainly will be a solution to every existing problem.

 

By the way,something terrible had happened to my cellphone.Water has penetrated into it.I feel horrible.

 

Today I've newly created two  blogs. One is for my Japanese writting, and the other one--this one--is for my English writting.

 

First I will give you a brief introduction. Actually I don't have an English name.Once I had one, but now I don't like it any more. So I wanna a new name. I hope there's someone who can help me get a new English name.

 

I figure that it's more easy for me to write in English than in Japanese. I wrote a composition in Japanese two hours ago. It is really annoying.My Japanese is very poor. I can't handle it well. So it took me nearly half an hour to finish that passage.

 

Well back to my self-introduction.My major is not English. But I love English so much that I keep studying even though it has nothing to do with my major.I wanna be a stimutaneous interpreter in the future.I know it's a high demanding work.Moreover,it's not easy for people who majors in English to become a stimutaneous interpreter,let alone me. However,I'm not frightened.I'm all ready for the difficulty that I may encounter en route to realize my dream.I will spare no efforts to achieve this goal.

 

From now on, I will keep writing English passage everyday.

 

So see you tomorrow!  o(∩_∩)o